From the recording Hogs On Ice

Prequel to Running 'Round in Circles.  A song about miscommunication on a monumental scale!  An impossible relationship with a woman who just did not know what she wanted.  No matter how I interpreted her words, I was somehow always wrong. Confusing as hell, but then love often is.  

Lyrics

words & music by willie t
 
sometimes i wonder what i am to you
or what you want me to be
i've tried so hard to be the one that you could run to
but you only wanted to be free
ruthie, i watched you suffer, seen you get kicked around
knew there was nothing i could say
that could smooth away the lines of age
that distress and despair carved on you
 
and i can't forgive this town for what its done to you
and i can't forgive the way i had to pay
for the crime of loving you, though our hearts were still true
and how it drove you away
 
and i need you now, but i know you can't give more
than these few crumbs you throw my way
i lap them up, i go beggin' for some more
ah, but you just turn to me and say,
"oh, babe i love you, but y'know i'm not in love"
i never wanted it this way
it's such a tricky word the way we use it
but when you come around, y'know i always let you stay
 
now you're lying there in bed with your red nightgown on
you grab my hand and say goodnight
i kiss your face, and then i turn out the light
and though you're near, i feel so all alone
and i lie awake each night, as you slumber in your dreams
restless, confused, i toss and turn
i want to touch you, think i should wake you
but instead i just roll over, and i turn my head away
 
and i need you now, but i know you can't give more
than these few crumbs you throw my way
i lap them up, i go beggin' for some more
ah, but you just turn to me and say,
"oh, babe i love you, but y'know i'm not in love"
i never wanted it this way
it's such a tricky word the way we use it
but when you come around, come around...
y'know i always...let you stay...
it's such a tricky, tricky word
 
willie t. (vocals, acoustic and elec., and lead guitars)
doctor x (vocals, percussion)
gary jenkins (bass, vocals)
danny feist (drums)
colleen macdonald (vocals)
andy mendelson (keyboards)